I've been crying all afternoon. Why on God's green earth did my biggest champion and life's most enthusiastic participant get struck by the shittiest disease on earth, suffer mightily and die without seeing his daughter born, leaving a life he loved and a wife he loved and a son he loved and a daughter he loved to figure out life forever without him.
There is no answer.
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Four young widows in Vermont. We laugh. We cry. We get pissed off. We go out to dinner. We buy each other inappropriate gifts.
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Four women, widowed young, in Vermont, with kids. What the hell. Thankfully we've found each other. Blog away, YWs!
Things that piss us off (add your own!)
- Knowing that if I lived in a warm climate, my family might actually show up and help me.
- Taking care of a sick child all alone.
- Hearing that my cousin "feels like a single parent" because her husband "travels so much." F@#$ You!
- Nicole Kidman and Keith Urban
- Having to be the one to handle the compost pile
- People who are miserably married but smug about being married
- Charlie's parents (I had a really vivid dream about bitching them out and cutting them out of our lives last night....)
- My bitchy neighbor across the street
- Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes
- People who have sex on a regular basis
- Happy Couples
- That I'm going to be older than my husband within a few years (and he was 11 years older than me)
5 comments:
Caroline, I'm so sorry. I wish none of us had to mark these sadiversaries.
Me too. This one is brutal. I haven't cried this much since... last year.
Damn, Caroline. I've spent the last hour trying to put a picture of a beautiful male Evening Grosbeak on the blog. That was such a gift to have him land at my house when you were visiting.
I'm sorry I can't figure out how to present him to you on the blog but he's fluttering in my thoughts of you and Alan right now.
Karen and Con might this is an insane post!
You'll be in our hearts tomorrow.
MKC
I hurt for you today. We'll have a good cry and a nice glass of wine tonight and toast a wonderful man.
Thank you all. Gail is a godsend (saw her at 9--she talked a lot about her widow-versaries too, which really helped). Karen, I look forward to seeing you tonight and I wish the rest of you could join us.
Alan was so present to me last night. I really felt him while I was in the kitchen, crying so hard that I had to wipe up the counter because it was soaked in my tears.
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